A or B

One or the other is true:

A) I am utterly incapable of motivating myself to do anything I don't want to do, and I cannot anticipate or control what I want to do.

B) I subconsciously sabotage everything I do whether I want it or not, for some sublime psychological reason yet undiscovered.

I'm not sure how to find out, since I never know if I actually want something. Hm.